My Decision Tree

well this blog is not about anything related to decision tree algorithm no its not even remotely related .

She made a decision when she was young and restless.Many things unanswered many issues unsolved .She wasnt even clear why she took that one step and why she trusted the same person who told her that if you trust someone and that sumone breaks your trust its your fault in the first place to trust him/her.Well she went through it all and while she thought that her decision was right that following her intuition was leading her to something beautiful she forgot to see the truth.He blinded her and no he didnt take advantage nor did he misuse her for that matter he didnt do nything even close to that.All he did was teach her a lesson.

Decisions i feel are made complex by the very own simplicity of choosing.I would rather chose than decide though they almost are equivalent yet the word Decision makes me feel responsible makes me feel that the outcome would be solely aimed at either destroying me or in my favour.

"And somehow she felt like she was helpless of her own doings like the world had indeed "decided" not to give her the one thing she knew deep down belonged to her.Would she live on or would dat one wrong decision kill her being and change her existence.Immortal she thought she was yet he killed her.Her decision was against her and all dis while she was in a bliss, her heart knew that this was right and this was it.but it wasnt and late she knew it wud change her may be forever."

life is indeed like a decision tree based on the decisions u make , it gets classified , sometimes sorted sometimes even more complex all based upon the "splitting attribute", the order in which they are chosen.and once u make a decision at one level of life theres no way of returning to that level again to change wad is already done .U decide and its done U are indeed classified now its always a sucess or a failure nothing in between.

But life isnt so cruel, though my decision tree had many levels of a failed output and i thought that i chose the wrong path and that nuthing would make it right, the beauty of the tree unfolded all of us do reach success may be sum reach it early others late but all reach there ultimately and sumtyms its ur wrong decisions that you once thought they were turn out to be the exact reason of ur sucess.

"And wen she thought it was over did it actually began.May be her decision wasnt wrong after all May be thats wad destiny had planned out for her.May be she deserved a Life much better than him. May be her fate had been written she was supposed to be immortal always and just the rain immortalised her.Her destiny was the rain and she did reach it."



Using the power of decision gives you the capacity to get past any excuse to change any and every part of your life in an instant. ~Anthony Robbins


The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live. ~Flora Whittemore


The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. ~David Russell

see the sun go down in your eyes...

Its not that other eyes havent attracted me so much. But its not even that i ever had seen eyes like his.It amazes me how life gives you beautiful little things to observe and be happy yet most of us wait for luxuries that define the world.I was lost and had a bubble wrapped around me.Had fears of people knowing what i really was.I just wanted to keep to myself certain things that i knew no one would understand .And there he was reading me in and out .Thats what i hated about him the most.He just looked and those same eyes that made you stare , read you and your thoughts and made your mind feel naked .

Love is poisonous, its even more toxic.But something about being so beautiful that all the toxicity neutralises. And yet his eyes when meet mine i fear nuthing , not even him reading my thoughts. Its just beautiful to have him look at me that way.Pure and immortal ,Blessed and divine.

Have you ever found sumone with those eyes that you wished no matter what they never left your gaze.Those eyes that in the biggest storm made you feel grounded.Those eyes that hypnotised you.Its beautiful when you have those pair of eyes set on you .It makes you know that out of all the shit that life puts you through you know you have him .No matter what .


Its strange but those same set of eyes i hated once have made me fall for them not cause the predicted me. But because i saw the sun go down in his eyes.

Love in all its forms

have you ever felt the need to supress your feelings for someone , just because that someone wont understand???
Love beyond everything is vast and amazing, but its weird how people have narrowed it down, how from ages its been restricted to certain predefined notions, and how an attempt to break those constraints leaves you all by yourself.
why do we have to have a name for every relation, cant the feelings just be there known and yet not confirmed, why has love always have to be so filtered and acceptable....
when you know theres a strange connection that you can't define, the freedom that a person gives you and the joy you have when he/she is around yet you dont want to name the relation when asked about it.

this is dedicated to a dear friend of mine who is yet to know that when sumone says love it doesnt always mean in an obvious way...
I love you , in a very special way, and i dnt find the need to tell anyone what kind of a relation i have with you, cause we both know, no one would understand.
the world has its own ways ,the truth only you and i know....

"ur d most amazingly astounding , wonderful person dat i have ever known....i am not an idiot.....i know how the world works....but i m too involved now ....u jump i jump ....remember..." :)

The mixed colours.

Its hard to even remember where it all started. I cant recall when i knew how to solve it right and how happy i was dat i solved it.Its all a distant memory...

Fame is what he dint need yet ultimately it led to all that he later felt, there were changes....changes that were so strong that it almost changed the way he looked at the things that once made him happy.And it wasnt his fault ...it was no ones.Yet he was disturbed by the mere curiosity and competition that surrounded him.

had he forgotten what he once was? had it got to him nd poisoned his pure mind, did it not matter now who he was or what he had become.?

the colours of the world had blurred and so had his thoughts. he was blinded by what he acheived so much that it ultimately buried his desires for more.he taught many others to solve the same yet somewhere the very thing that brought him joy.....cursed his life .

the colours all arranged no longer made him happy .theres a way with the world i would call hype , whenever sumone does something people just follow like the herd of sheeps...just aimlessly doing what others do...and moreover compete .isnt it strange that how influential even the smallest talents can be...people just would blindly run behind it even if its not for them...even if they are hardly interested in it...

there was this strange hype about the rubiks cube in my class...well and with no offence to all those who blindly tried to learn it nd den beat each other at it...really it doesnt matter...no one remembers i just remember the rubiks cube in his hand....all colours arranged and a broad smile on his face.... :)

Kohl rimmed eyes

She walks down the lane , the one that she has walked for years now, people recognise her and smile she smiles back.There is nothing new about her appearance the same regular gait and the same glowing smile.Its dark and the moon has reached its highest point, the sea has been attracted towards the moon.She loves the darkness she loves everything about being alone.The wind flows through her hair and it makes her fell amazingly free.the little things she likes have all gathered to make her happy the wind the darkness and the moon.There is something different though in all the similarities , an aura that shines around her, a feeling of strength and power that can be seen.

her eyes are brighter than usual , they are twinkling and anyone who knows her can say she is different today,much bright and much more powerful than always.She can speak through her eyes and yet she never trusts them .They have given her away at times and she has learnt how to enslave them to her own good.

The kohl around her eyes has smudged and she herself cant make out what is it shes looking for, everythings a blur ,her mind sees flashes and her eyes are blind toward what her mind thinks ,she wants to let go. She wants to end this happiness ,she wants to feel the pains again, she needs to be human again ,she begs for sanity in her life!!! While death answers it all ,she lies among the woods breathing still waiting for that one last breath and it arrives freeing her from all the mortal things .

life made her happy, now death tries to please her, as she lies beneath the starlit skies , the girl with the Kohl rimmed eyes.

Random ...

WEll the last time i wrote or thought about writing ,i feel i had a different mindset of everything, including me.and for long i havent felt like writing about anything, its weird though how something i loved doing had managed to stay away from me.Well this is nothing specific its just about random things that keep happening.
As life has taken turns all the way i keep forgetting where i started from and where i ended , and i dont regret any of the things that happened including the things i did wrong.
i realsed in all this shit that life gives us the only thing that makes us or breaks us is ourself..trust me no friend no family can no matter how hard they try can ever understand what you are going through, i have been through rough patches, locked myself in my room and blasted the stereo for god knows how long, i have cried for hours, sometimes for myself sometimes on why i let someone hurt me, and sometimes just for some close people who are in the same hell as i am...
.all of this has made me strong, atleast enough to face what life has and smile through it all.sometimes i feel glad there is a hell....else how would you know the pleasures of heaven..

If sometimes you feel things are getting painful around you then sometimes rather than breaking free from it its better to face it atleast you will be free from the run away guilt i am glad i did!!!

note:: this is to the last two years and all the people who made it hell and heaven thank you!!!

Accidentally in love.

well like the title suggest this post is about love....well its not something you would expect typically, infact it wont come even close to what you might have expected. Being a teenage girl this isnt something new, its so common that infact i get freaked out at how many times this topic is mentioned around me....i have seen typical romances, the mushy ones, the weird ones, the forced ones...normally i know when this topic comes to your mind all it makes you wonder is about your girl or your guy thats if you have one if you dont well then you think about the girl/ guy you have a crush on!!! not delaying further read on i dnt think nything better can explain the text below besides itself!!!








No and dont expect a love story ahead .....


the following is an insight to a p.d. of a girl





how my mind wanders in different areas is immaterial ,now that you've entered all departments of my mind m always thinking about why the hell do i have to like sumone like you....???? my life was so much better before you came....i always had friends who were out with guys but then theirs was such a simple case and mine seems soooo complicated...but somwhere down the line i want you to know all that i went through , not that i will tell you ever, because whenever you are around i am unable to form words that you will understand...

Note :"i dont want to love you"



sometimes love happens accidentaly and to the most repelling person ever!!!